Uh, ok sorry for no update for nong nong. Hmm.. Things bet. me and K are going okay.. Wouldn’t really say it’s perfect yet. I think we still need abit more time. She has exams like may. So, it’s getting really busy for her so we don’t meet often at all. I’ve been slowly drilling in some standards we should keep to and etc. Well, write again soon. I gtg catch my bus !
Time and again, i grab on to your wounded hand
and walk down this road filled with anxiety.
Amidst the days that flow by slowly,
the treasure we obtained is so warm and beloved.
Hey, as time goes by,
let’s just smile and walk away.
Because of you, I can go forward.
Now our feelings become one
and turn into a guide for our path.
So I’ll never let go of this hand.
English translation for ED01 Rental Magica - Jungo Yoshida - Aruiteikou
Nice song. Hop on to gendou.com if you wana get it.
i haven’t planned for it yet.. crap. i was like thinking.. everyone would be booking restaurants for a date with their girl. should I? Economy crisis leh. No income. I’m planning on using my red packet money to get her something. But I’m kinda letting her decide what she wants first. These few days she keep playing mahjong for like what.. 6-9 hours straight? Break time also nv bother to reply my msgs.. Like 1 whole day get 1 msg when she wake up, and another after she’s done with mahjong. Then when she calls me after that, it’s always about her whining how much she losing in mahjong and winning in blackjack. Maybe I’m not ready yet.. Maybe i’m asking too much. I don’t know. Assignments submission all coming so soon. Then exams right after. Really can’t have much breathing space. I wana do braces, get driving done. Need to get over this flu, and keep a regular exercise schedule up. Pfft. Life has so high requirements.
ok my bad. school was eating up everything. anyways, today i’m sick ! headache haunt me since last night. now not so bad. going out to meet classmates for dinner and update myself.
mm.. had a long talk with karine last night.. this might get long, but i’m in a hurry so i’ll try to rush it. I still remember the first time I met her was on v.day sec 3. Damn I was such a nerd then. Never knew about tucking out shirt n all. LOL. Wore like school uniform, tuck in but abit of it tucked out kinda thing? Something like office wear that look. Ok, anyway.. I’ve been changing myself ever since then, just to suit her likings. Went hair salons, dyed hair, basically.. kept myself up to date on fashion. If not for her, none of these would have probably started. Have to thank her though. All in all, I’ve been doing alot for her sake, and I hope that I will be able to be at her requirements for a guy. She had 4 BFs after we broke.. and she tells me she’s always been pampered alot. Like almost everyday after school, her ‘whoever’ will send her home, then go home himself. Pay for every meal, everything literally, for her. Which means, all of them were rich fags. Well I’m not, and I told her I won’t be able to give her the same pampered life that she’s been enjoying. But I did tell her I wanted to be with her badly. (I’m friggin dumb, I know) Well, now no income cause of school, dad’s not working. Trying to sell off the house.. Then hope things turn out to be better. Pocket money is have.. but I don’t spend it. I save for when we go out. Hmm.. all in all, I’ve been sacrificing alot for her. This period that we’re trying out, we take it like a trial. She’ll make the final decision (I don’t know when still.. -_-) soon, hopefully.
Oh and about that headache last night, I got it from crying too much and blowing nose every few min. Sorry you trees, I took quite some tissue. Okay i’m damn hungry now. Recovering boy need to eat moar ! K, until the next time folks. Later!
I’ve talked to her and we’ve decided to try it out. She has doubts about it cause of what happened before. I know i’ve hurt her, and I’m going to make it up to her even if I’m on the losing end. She prolly has like 10% trust in me? I highly doubt it will work out, but I’m just going to do what I can to end the endless hauntings from her saying that I broke up with her because of someone that didnt last a month with me. Need to clear up this “guilt” that she built up on me. And how i felt during that period, she will never know and never listen/understand.
Wah today the teacher super attitude problem. Met new friend too. Was louis’ polymate, Donald. Chat abit n found out he was in Foxtrot in my batch but out of course due to chicken pox on the first week. He only went back into Foxtrot the next intake. So he was the missing guy in my bunk. What a coincidence. Anyway this Kenneth guy in my class, acting weird as usual. He got issues like seriously. Can’t describe his behaviour also. Too random.. Just anyhow walk around class asking ppl he dunno if they knew this and that question if its easy or not. Always holding a voice recorder that looks like a remote. Think should be recording every single lecture. SICK. Was once when we were in the toilet, Louis was at the urinal section and saw him just literally DROP his pants down. Like wtf, what’s a cubical for? Glad I didn’t see that. ugh sure no more appetite. Got chiobu from new intake too. Was playing jeanne de arc on psp lawl. The number of guys flooding man. Too many.
Had lunch at kopitiam @ clementi with Cat, Louis, Don, Justin. Oh yeah, i got a keychain from Cat when she was at new york. Looks simple but nice. Feel quite bad like nv get her anything. But i’ll work on that.
Sucks man tomorrow full day school 9-5. Gonna put in more effort this term. Can’t afford to scrape through anymore.
last night, she told me she was gonna play mahjong overnight at her house, with her friends going over. but before they were there, she said she had a slight fever. so I told her not to play too long and to rest early. she said ok. her friends came soon after. when the fireworks went off at 12 for the new year, i called to say happy new year, she cup my call. i called again, she picked up. managed to say hny, then she was like.. ok, i call u back later. at 3.30am i thought i’d try my luck and check if she stopped to sleep. called her, picked up. the moment she picked up, i damn pissed already. she tell me call me back later again. i cbf so i just said im gonna sleep. woke up this morning, received a sms at 11am saying happy new year and that they stopped playing. i saw that, cbf replying. she sms me again about 9pm and asked if i was angry. so bla bla i ask her this n that. she told me her fever subsided 1 hour after mahjong and didnt want to be a bad host, so continue playing. like get some fucking common sense la.. she has history of bad headaches on and off (something like migraine, duno wtf is it also(like how i have my own weird problem)) and then still dont wana rest early. she risk her health to play mahjong. fucked up or not u tell me. why do i even care about this kinda person. srsly.. only nice when i help her find out info about wii. RAWR. pissed. ok putting her on ignore list for a day. i need to calm down..
think karine just has a standard for her friends. no car = weak. don’t drink = weaker.
i don’t like drinking really. why do people drink anyway? tastes like crap. just because i said i dont like drinkers, she gets all angry. what’s wrong with my preference? it just doesn’t appeal to me, girls that like drinking that is. so, it’s time for me to start drinking, smoking, clubbing. how’s that sound? alright.. who’s up for some liquor? don’t wana give a shit about my health no more. life is all about following in people’s footsteps and learn their habits. how boring..
don’t think we even click well together. topics of talk are always general stuff. like there’s nothing in common. she likes nintendo ds, wii, while im for sony consoles. for example of course. siannn ahhhh im dyinggg. don’t know what to do anymore!
dont like -
smokers, clubbers, heavy drinkers
dont do -
smoke, club, drink
now what if i take away the don’ts. life already sucks. until now, i haven’t found what meaning there is to life. does anyone? probably most people know. but it sucks not to.
anyway.. most people wana know about my new classmate catherine. so yeah, that’s her name. interesting person. cheerful n all. she played dark ages too ! like zomg. where do u find someone that random. k enough about games. i just have this feeling im getting tired of gaming. growing out of it maybe? wow expires 19jan. most prob not gonna renew account. yeah. sick game, makes me sick !
Some things i just felt like telling you mr.blog -
I don’t like watching horror shows because I tend to think alot. It’s scary to have flashbacks of shows of gore, horror etc. That’s the reason why, when people paste me links of those screaming into the screen kinda vids, I get damn pissed off. Please, be nice to me?
Karine’s expectations of a guy is starting to get too high. Decides for me where to get a haircut, what colour hair to dye (which i’m not going to), lots more (use your imagination, everything you do when you’re not at home). Seems like she wants to follow the trend of japanese. Like EVERYTHING. Fashion, mannerisms, hairdo, behaviour as a couple, or even on public transport. I’m not saying this is bad la. Not at all. I just feel the need to be more singaporean if you’re in singapore. K that was nonsense. I’m just afraid that once I fall out of that ’standard’, I’ll be fired, know what I mean?
New year’s coming. Happy new year in advance to all you folks who’re reading this.
Ok i’m out for haircut. Good day!
